Dear You,

Sometimes I am unsound and slightly maddening, but I do my best to be reasonable. I am not always considerate, or perceptive. Sometimes I am so consumed by how I might be perceived by you and others that I forget to be myself, but I'm working on it. Being distrusting is a characteristic that I wish I didn't have, but I do, and I am sorry. Truly. If it seems that I am difficult to figure out, it's because I keep myself safe, a bit too safe sometimes, but I will learn to give of myself. From time to time I may say or do things that make me seem wise or mature, and maybe occasionally I am those things, but don't expect those traits all the time because I am still learning. You might not be looking for someone like me, but that doesn't negate the fact that I exist, and desire to be noticed. I don’t expect much from you; because I often fall short myself. But if you intend to stand just on the edge of interaction and true friendship then please move along because I do not desire to spend any of my hope on someone who is not willing to be at least somewhat invested in me as a human being. I am only good at one thing: being myself. This is not to say that I will never better myself, it just means that I will only do so at my own pace, not yours. I spent a lot of time being a chameleon. I am a good pretender, but I think you and the rest of the world are longing for something real. I am right here. I am really nothing special, just another child of God searching the world for some truth. I am just me, but is that enough for you?

Hopefully,

Heather